My life

I'm content with my life.
You may judge me because I'm not going to college.
You may think I'm not going to be successful.
You may want me to be important.

But I'm cool with just chillaxin.

I'm definitely not going to continue working at my current place of employment for the rest of my life. In case you were wondering.
But I do enjoy it... a lot!

See, my family has always been workaholics.
I have 3 older brothers and none have gone to college,
But they have turned out just fine.

One owns his own business.
One is living his dreams in Montana.
One is..well I'm not exactly sure what he's doing.. but I know he has a daughter and a girlfriend that he loves very much and he is a great father.

My younger brother, knows exactly what he's doing when he gets out of highschool. He's always been just a tad bit different then the rest of us,
So he's going to college. He wants to be a doctor or some crazy shit like that.

I guess I've always been different too... since I'm the only girl and all.
Well besides my 6 year old sister. She's still got some growing up to do.

I have not a single clue what I want to be when I grow up.
All I know is that I want to be happy. And that's enough for me.

And who knows! Maybe someday I will go to college.
Maybe someday I will figure out exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life.


But today, I don't want to figure that out.
I don't want to be stuck doing the same thing for the next 50 years.
So for now, I'm content with minimum wage.
But like I said earlier, I'm a workaholic.

So I need at least 40 hours a week.
And I'm not getting that at this job.
So I need another.
I'm on the hunt.
Wish me luck.



Don't worry about me.

Previously..

Alright, so that last one was a little harsh.
I still feel the same though.
I don't take ANY of it back.

In fact, my hatred just got worse today.
You said something to me.
Doesn't happen very often, thank God.

But I ignored you.
Didn't say a word.
Wanna know why?

If I would've opened my mouth the words
"Fuck you"
Would have fallen out.

So I kept my mouth shut.
My mother always said
"If you don't have anything nice to say,
don't say anything at all."

So I figure it's best to just

be silent



Not all the time like I said I would.
That's much harder than I thought.
But I keep silent from you.

I'll talk to my mother all I want because I CAN.

But you.

You will not hear my words ever be directed to you.

No no no no no no no no.


P.s. I'm sorry if anyone is reading this, I'm going through a stage where I'm just so freaking angry. It's not all the time, I don't understand how people can possibly be angry all the time...there is so much more to life than furrowed eyebrows and frowns. I laugh a lot, I really do. I'm a happy person. Just not around these motherfuckers. Oh and it doesn't help that I have a pretty bad potty mouth... shwoops! Don't worry, I'm hoping this will soon pass. I just need a way to let out the anger. So I just write it all out.
I also realize I'm not good at writing. But that's okay. I don't care. But THANKS for reading! 
 ....kbai

ohhh how depressing!

selfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfish

You're so damn selfish.

Do you even think about your kids anymore?

You just wanna be with him.

You just wanna spend your time with him.

You miss him.

You need to talk to him.

Well guess what,

I hate him. 

I'm sick of him.

I'm annoyed of him.

I can't listen to him.

 I just plain don't fucking like him.

I feel used around here.

The only time you talk to me is when you're telling me to do something.

Do the dishes

Take the dog out

Buy some milk

Clean the kitchen

Do my laundry

Wash more dishes

Pay my water bill

Where's my rent

Babysit for me 

  Well hey, maybe I wanna spend time with you.

"Oh but I'm going out with him tonight"

..and the next night

and the next night

and the next night.

Well fine then. 

Fuck you.

I'll just walk around this house fucking silent then.

I won't say a word to either of you.

Because now it's not only him I can't stand, 

but you I can't stand. 

Go ahead, try to talk to me now.

Try to hug me now.

You're not getting anything from me.

Nothing but my fucking rent

Which HOPEFULLY SOON 

will be going to someone else

Cause I don't plan to be here for much longer.

fuck

you

both 

 Just remember mom, you brought this on yourself.

 

Say Anything

Ipod

Radio

Computer

Car

Everywhere that I can listen to music, 

I listen to Say Anything.

It's not my fault they're AMAZING.

I just don't really enjoy other music right now.

I go through phases where say anything is all that I listen to.

Apparently, that phase is now...

^^^^^^

Concerts I have been to :)

thin is good

Yesterday I joined a gym.

It's very, very exciting.

We worked out for an hour and a half,
and went tanning!

I enjoy sweating.
That sounds weird, but it's true!
I was on the elliptical for an hour and it was a BLAST.

They have tv's on every machine so I watched a show for that hour, it went by so fast. It was amazing.

We're going again tonight, and hopefully like everyday..

I do want to be thin, for summer.

Don't get me wrong- I'm extremely comfortable with my body.
I just want to lose a few pounds and look nicer.

The way I eat..it's unhealthy to not work some of it off.
So this is good for me.

& I'm enjoying it.

:)

faaaceboook

I'm going through my friends list on facebook right now...
Deleting a lottt of people.

..I just don't care to creep on people anymore.
I delete everyone that I have never talked to or don't plan on ever talking to.
It's really quite entertaining.
I'll randomly be like, "Who is this?"

Also, I deleted a whole bunch of info on my profile cause I'm starting to look at facebook from this guy's point of view.
He thinks facebook is creepy so therefor he does not have one.
I was thinking about it and really, how much do you judge someone by looking at their facebook profile?
I do it!
..We all do.

So I deleted all my information..

• religious views
• movies i like
• where i work
• what school i went to
• books i enjoy
• relationship status

..that sort of shit.

So now, my profile is pretty bare.
But that way if people really want to "get to know me"
They have to talk to me.

& Sure I still have a thousand-some pictures of me on there, but that I can deal with.

I really wish facebook wasn't so consuming in our society though.
Personally, I log on several times a day...
But I believe it is a great way to stay connected with our peers.
Like really, who makes phone calls to people just to say what's up
or texts someone to be like hey, what movies do you like?!

All we have to do is type in their name...
There we've got all the information we neeeed.
Including what they're doing that day. Possibly that moment.
Although, I've noticed that's not really what people use status updates for anymore.
Now it's just song lyrics and funny quotes and whatnot.


I plan to keep my facebook for a very long time...
but that's just me..

Winter

So I was looking through random winter photos....

& I thought to myself (again)

WHY do I live here?!

 

I mean, I love the people and the atmosphere and growing up here and everything, but I just don't like winter. 

Even as I'm admiring all of these beautiful photos taken in winter, I hate them. It looks sooooo cold and there is no color. I dislike it.

But I could never move. 

I can visit places, 

but I don't think I could live there for more than like, a year.

Then again, I've never tried. 

 

...California, here I come.

..

....I can't think of anything I wanna write.

So I'll just say hi.

Hello! :)

I like you

I knew that though.
And then I thought, maybe I don't.
But I think I know.
I like you.

We had all this alone time, and didn't have much to say. I didn't know what to talk about with you...plus you were working & I don't like being annoying. But you're soooooo cute....... I think it's all lust. That's what it is.

So then. There's this other guy, who I actually have things to talk about and we have real conversations and he is quite attractive...but do I stand a chance is the question...
I think maybe.
I mean sure, I'm young, innocent, inexperienced... but I'm FUN.
& everyone needs a little fun in their lives, am I right?!

Ughhh. Oh, and you're probably thinking all I talk about is boys so you're very uninterested in this blog.....

yeah, you're probably right.

They're just on my mind right now, that's all. I enjoy boys, they make life more interestiiiiing:)

Summer

Appearances

Heeey, so I'm debating coloring my hair.

Dark.

I've always had light hair. Whether it's dirty blonde, or platinum blonde, it's always been light.
So recently I did color my hair lighter, and it turned out more goldish yellow.
I didn't really like it, but I've gotten used to it.
Now I want to fix it.
I was told today that the yellow really washes out my face or makes me look pale, so I was debating going darkerrrr & then in the summer I'll go back to my beach blonde hair:)

But I don't know if it'll work for mee........
I kinda wish I would've just left my hair natural...it was a good color.
Nothing special, but it was real.

And now, I'm going to get a gym membership that I'm SUPER excited about.
I'm hoping to drop a few pounds, but mostly just get into shape.
I feel like that's why I'm always cold, because I don't move much.
& then I remember we live in Minnesota and that's why I'm cold.

But still, I'm pretty freaking excited (:

Anywhooo, have a beautiful day. kbyeee!

Things that make me smile...

kids

duumb people

laughter

my dog

awkwardness

jokes

sunshine

myself

colorful things

happy people

cute boys

my friends

life

..& so much more.

You know, I just don't understand why some people have to be so negative. And mean. Like I honestly wonder why people are mean sometimes, when we've done nothing to make them angry. It's like they enjoy being evil?!

Fucking weirdos.

I mean really, if we didn't have any of these randomly mean, bitchy people.. I feel like everyone's life would be so much better. I've noticed recently that moods are very easy to spread.

Like at work, if someone is reeeally crabby they are gonna make a lot of other people crabby along with them. 

But if someone shows up & is super happy and hyper, it kinda loosens everyone's grip on life. Why do people take things so seriously...?

I'll admit, I can be pretty conceited sometimes.. but that's just because I think I am the shit.

Anyways, have a beautiful day. kbyyee(:

I've got my mind set on you.

There's nothing you can do to change my mind about you.

Why must you make me feel this way?!
Even if we only speak a few words, I get all giddy.
& I'll remember those words until the next time we speak.
Which I always pray will be soon.
I really wish I was smoother... cause I would be all over you.
And you'd like it...
;)

It's your eyes
your laugh
your smile
your tatoos
your voice
your arms
your walk

I wish I could bottle all of that up
& keep it for myself.

I've never been good at sharing...

Ohhh how I wish you felt the same.

Omg, my bff..lol

I love my life.

Seriously, I think laughing is my favorite thing to do...EVER.
& that wii dancing game is a BLASSSSTTT.
I had so much fun yesterday!
I finally got to hang out with mah ladiiiieees
and it was....just...awesome.

I was up until 5 a.m. eating junk food & watching an AMAAAZZIIIINNNG episode of Dexter with my best friend in the whole world and it was just a good night.
Sure, we may not have gotten as much sleep as we wanted... but it was a good morning as well.
I finished eating my box of mini smores things as my breakfast and then we did the searching game on the back of the box.
It was hilarious because we are hilarious.

I just love my life....so much. :)

faaaake

So you're taking a special interest in me.
At first I was confused,
Then I take a look...
& you've got a special interest in 642 other girls.

Well, thank goodness I didn't care to be your friend.
You still try though...it's sad.

You think I'm playing "hard to get"
Really I'm playing "don't even bother"

They're two different games.

Like when I say, no you may not have my number...
that means, no you may not have my number.
When I say, no I don't want to hang out...
that means, no I don't want to hang out.
so on and so forth...

I just don't care to be friends with people sometimes...

Is that mean of me?

Boo, you whore.

Look at all their perfect smiles...

Perfect hair...
Perfect clothes...
Perfect faces...

But look what's inside.

Failure.
Emptiness.
Drama.
Hurt.
Disappointment.


You may be fooling some people,
but I know who you are.


& I'm happy I'm not one of you


..you mean girls.

cold

heater

blanket

hot chocolate

fuzzy socks

sweatshirt

sweatpants

another blanket

fireplace

...I miss warmth.

rawrl

That's the sound of my stomache.
Oh, how lovely.

Last night, I had 4 doughnuts
(within a 4 hour time period)
This morning, I had another for breakfast.

gross.
..Tell me about it.

So I won't be eating much..or anything, for the rest of the day.
Hahah, it was delicious, but I kinda feel nasty now.

Ahh... life is good.

I simply adore having a wonderful day at work.
Call me weird, but I love my job.

The people I work with make me smile & laugh...
And that makes me HAPPY.

& who doesn't like being happy?!

I'm sick

of this.

My "New year's resolution" was to stop going out to eat.
Or at least narrow it down to once a week.
Guess what,
It's January 10th
& I've gone out to eat
SEVEN TIMES.

10 days into the new year, & I've only gone three days without fast food, or restaurant food. That's pathetic! I'm pathetic!

This neeeeeeeeeeeeeds to change.

So today. Was my last time.
Well, for awhile.
No more this month. That's what I'm striving for.
And if I can't do that...

Well, let's just hope that I can.

 

Ugh

"If you only you could see me,
We'd dance like a heart attack."

I think I should tell you...
I want your bod.

Apparently my face
"lights up"
when I talk about you..

I wanna hang out with you.

I feel it, I'm all smiles.

I get all jittery when I'm around you,
and I love that feeling...

We should hang out.

You probably don't feel the same,
but how would I know?

I wish we could hang out.

Uuughghhh...
I want you.

Snow

Everyday.

Aaaaayyy

So...there's this boy.

He's kind of, really hot.

He's also kind of, really old.

It shouldn't be a big deal though, right?

I mean...age is just a number.

But it's not. If you think about it, your age limits you to many things. It kinda defines who we are in a way. When you're under 1 year, you're adorable. When you're 2, you're terrible. (Hence- the terrible twos). When you're 5, you start school. When you're 10, you're a mess. When you're 13, you're a teenager. When you're 16, you can drive & can't be trusted. When you're 18, you're an adult and on your own. When you're 21, you can legally drink. When you're 30, you freak out. When you're 40, you're "Over the Hill". When you're 60, you're life is half over. And when you're 90...well, you get the picture.

So really age is an appropriate thing to be worried about, right?

Ugh. But what if you're in love. 

Woah- woah- woah. 

I'm not saying that I AM in love. No no no no... I'm just saying, if someone was in love...then everything else should just flow, right? So age wouldn't matter. It wouldn't even need to matter..because you have each other.

But these are just my thoughts.


And there is still a boy.

Alright, seriously now.

Oh hai Mark.

Alright, so I'm not much of a writer..actually not at all. 
But I was told having a blog is fun, so I thought I'd get one.

And yes, if I was told jumping off a cliff was fun, I'd do that too.

So hiii, nice to meet you all. I'm Lacey, I'm eighteen years old and I live in a state that no one else wants to live in...p.s. it's a high of 13 degrees today..WOOHOO IT'S ABOVE ZERO. I do love it here though, it's just the cold I can't stand. And I love my Minnesotan accent too:)
Sure, I'd much rather live where it's warm but I enjoy knowing where things are in this town and frankly..if you ask people that ride in a car with me, I don't really know my way around here anyways...

No, I'm not dumb. Just really really COOL.

Whhaaat

Heey.

I'm Lacey.

Sydney told me to get one of these, I think.

So yaaayy!