Previously..

Alright, so that last one was a little harsh.
I still feel the same though.
I don't take ANY of it back.

In fact, my hatred just got worse today.
You said something to me.
Doesn't happen very often, thank God.

But I ignored you.
Didn't say a word.
Wanna know why?

If I would've opened my mouth the words
"Fuck you"
Would have fallen out.

So I kept my mouth shut.
My mother always said
"If you don't have anything nice to say,
don't say anything at all."

So I figure it's best to just

be silent



Not all the time like I said I would.
That's much harder than I thought.
But I keep silent from you.

I'll talk to my mother all I want because I CAN.

But you.

You will not hear my words ever be directed to you.

No no no no no no no no.


P.s. I'm sorry if anyone is reading this, I'm going through a stage where I'm just so freaking angry. It's not all the time, I don't understand how people can possibly be angry all the time...there is so much more to life than furrowed eyebrows and frowns. I laugh a lot, I really do. I'm a happy person. Just not around these motherfuckers. Oh and it doesn't help that I have a pretty bad potty mouth... shwoops! Don't worry, I'm hoping this will soon pass. I just need a way to let out the anger. So I just write it all out.
I also realize I'm not good at writing. But that's okay. I don't care. But THANKS for reading! 
 ....kbai

ohhh how depressing!

selfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfishselfish

You're so damn selfish.

Do you even think about your kids anymore?

You just wanna be with him.

You just wanna spend your time with him.

You miss him.

You need to talk to him.

Well guess what,

I hate him. 

I'm sick of him.

I'm annoyed of him.

I can't listen to him.

 I just plain don't fucking like him.

I feel used around here.

The only time you talk to me is when you're telling me to do something.

Do the dishes

Take the dog out

Buy some milk

Clean the kitchen

Do my laundry

Wash more dishes

Pay my water bill

Where's my rent

Babysit for me 

  Well hey, maybe I wanna spend time with you.

"Oh but I'm going out with him tonight"

..and the next night

and the next night

and the next night.

Well fine then. 

Fuck you.

I'll just walk around this house fucking silent then.

I won't say a word to either of you.

Because now it's not only him I can't stand, 

but you I can't stand. 

Go ahead, try to talk to me now.

Try to hug me now.

You're not getting anything from me.

Nothing but my fucking rent

Which HOPEFULLY SOON 

will be going to someone else

Cause I don't plan to be here for much longer.

fuck

you

both 

 Just remember mom, you brought this on yourself.

 

Say Anything

Ipod

Radio

Computer

Car

Everywhere that I can listen to music, 

I listen to Say Anything.

It's not my fault they're AMAZING.

I just don't really enjoy other music right now.

I go through phases where say anything is all that I listen to.

Apparently, that phase is now...

^^^^^^

Concerts I have been to :)